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[Lord_Zamboodu]

I have been going through some really serious nightmare crap for the past 8 months. I have been barely, honestly, holding on and deeply deeply depressed. I just wanted to say thank you to everybody on this forum as you made the painful days bearable as much as they could be; thank you guys.

[SpleenBeGone]

Wasn't aware we did anything. >.>

Glad it helped you though.
Are things getting better?

[Calvary]

Eight months? That's a long stretch of depression, figured going to see a psychiatrist?

[Lord_Zamboodu]

Things are not getting better :-(. Head doctor won't help on this one sadly............. Hoping time will be my savior.

[Lord_Zamboodu]

sorry I haven't posted in a while........more sad news for me :-(. Thought I was coming to the light of this horrible tunnel. Then this weekend found out the last living grandparent I have, the one who raised me, has now just passed. Man I think the powers to be must be against me. 10+ months of just pure joy can it get any better LOL.

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

Man..

I'm so sorrie for all your hardships.

I hope the bad passes soon for you.

[SpleenBeGone]

Sorry to hear that. I hope things let up soon and you get a break.

[Lord_Zamboodu]

thanks everybody. It can only be shitty for a certain length of time right. Has to end and go the other way :-D eventually

[Krankykoala]

If you decide to go the medicinal route DO NOT LET THEM PUT YOU ON PROZAC!!!!! That shit zombifies you. Feeling emotion of any kind was awkward for months after i removed myself from that long ago.

[Calvary]

It means nothing I'm sure, but I too offer my sincere condolences. Please take care of yourself, and know that no matter how bad things are now, they must get better. It is true.

[SpleenBeGone]

Take Koala's advice, prozac is terrible.

[Calvary]

Might sound stupid, and so very cliche, but you have to learn to enjoy the little things, I know by the end of this week I will probably be back into the sort of depression I was in at the weekend where I curled up into a foetal position and cried to myself for about an hour straight. Honest to God, enjoying the little things like it being sunny for an hour, the leaves on the trees that weren't here last month, the bird song, good music and good food, that makes it bearable until the phase passes again.

[SpleenBeGone]

That's a good way to look at things.

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

If you decide to go the medicinal route DO NOT LET THEM PUT YOU ON PROZAC!!!!! That shit zombifies you. Feeling emotion of any kind was awkward for months after i removed myself from that long ago.

Or Paxil.

I spent an entire month blinking, and that was it.

[Lord_Zamboodu]

A little hint guys. I have tried all those meds and others........they don't really work just make me all spacey and sometimes worse. I avoid those meds. Although I will take care and appreciate your comments. Sorry I haven't talked for a while. I have gone to a very dark place and needed to place some control on myself.

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

You don't have to apologize.

The people that I know from off the boards from here have all been through a bad patch and come back from really dark places, myself included.

Take your time, do what you need..

Just don't lose yourself there.
At the end of the day remember that only you can pull yourself back up when life kicks you down.

Good luck, truly.

[Lord_Zamboodu]

Thank you.........I am really trying just not making it. I had to write about it at a board in hopes that a release of it might help.......it didn't. Can always post the link for the story here along with the song that plays through my head all day every day.......such a bad song to hear in your head during this.

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

It's hard.
It's really hard.
I have been depressed pretty much 2/3rds of my life.
And I've been on meds and in therapy for about a year now and I still find myself occasionally crying myself to sleep at night and really struggling to get up during the day.

Just find one thing a day..one small little thing that made your life easier, or didn't go wrong, or made you smile..

Just start small.
Getting hurt takes seconds, healing takes so much longer.
Don't rush it.
Just don't give up on it, know that one day the silver lining will shine through.

And if you'd like to post it here, if that would help.. I will read it.
I'm sure others that have been there will as well.

Whatever you need that we can do, please let us know.

I know it's just a forum, and we've never met.. but you're not alone in this if you don't want to be.

[Lord_Zamboodu]

I don't know if it will work but here is the link. I hope it helps understanding what is going on for all these years...........My user name there is Zamboodu only one story: http://www.experienc...-To-Die/2264569

This song is what won't stop playing in my head: http://www.youtube.c...h?v=-CGIii_eTOk

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

I'm in the middle of making dinner, once it settles down here I will check them both out.

Don't want to give something like that half of my attention.

Also, The Smiths.. I had a really good friend that loved them.