Alright, back to the topic at hand.....

 

I have lost faith in real humans. Someone who I thought i could trust really let me down today. I was ready to lay everything on the line for him and he didn't pull through for me.

 

My pokemon are my real friends now. 

Sorry to hear that Rob. Yeh Friends let you down.

I learned that coming back from America and my newly found friend, the only one I had btw (I rarely let people in and trust them >_> RARELY) decided not to speak with me again. Not a word. Nothing. Just like the rest, they take what they need and leave. (in my case)

And guess what else guys, I kinda lied, cause I was ashamed. I did buy my own birthday cake and I did eat it alone. 

And my cat nearly died on me.

No more contests from me. Adios <3

-Akiyo

He'll always be with you and now he's touched our hearts as well. I'm so so sorry for your loss

So.... that happened... I usually never want to have more than 1 or 2 beers...

after the 4th I seemed to think it was a good idea to keep going. T_T

After taking overly powerful birth control pills, I've completely changed for the worst. I am no longer happy go lucky. I'm moody and I'm angry those pills ruined everything. I could easily cry at work. I cry at home and I've yelled at people who didn't deserve it. Hormones are fucking up everything I worked so hard to achieve. Including anxiety, which takes a lot of effort to control..

What do I do.. should I go see a doctor? I'm supposed to wait a few weeks before starting on a new brand. It's only 3 weeks till I go to America

I'm so sorry Sympa *hugs*

Ohh.

Absolutely love that you guys translate to Norwegian for me XD

<3

I do not think he's being too keen. They go to the same school and guys seem to be flocking to her so, no. He just be himself.

Your mind is worrying and overthinking because you really really like her. The only thing left to do before paranoia consumes you dear Loafcat, is to ask her politely and properly before those other guys do. There really is nothing scary about, because in the end that's what you want right? Worries won't get you anywhere and she might prefer someone who's more blunt for all you know

There's no easy answer, but go with your gut and whatever choice you make, HAVE NO FEAR ;3

A funk? I don't understand what that means :s

We miss you too, Sympa! I'm a good listener, or at least I want to be, if you ever wanna rant/talk, please let me know!

As for being online at work.. I do that too.. and I promise there's nothing wrong in wanting to reach out when things aren't going well.

Feel really bad that you're having a hard time either way... Cheer up

I wish I were better at consoling people...

 

GET YOUR ASS IN HERE, AFFRAY

This time I tried to reach out Wolfie!

I thought I would post on here because I've been slipping into a deep depression and everyone I try to talk to just tells me it will get better soon and I don't know that answer just makes me angry. So about a month ago my boyfriend of two years (who I live with) decided to break up with me because "I'm not the kind of person he wants to have a family with" ... Who says that to someone? Can I be that horrible of a person? So I've tried to deal with it and move on but the major problem is that we still live together (our lease isn't up for another 2 months) and I hate seeing him living his stupid happy life when all I can think about it wanting to smother him in his sleep. I hate feeling uncomfortable in my own house.  Anyone have any tips on how to deal or should I just smother him??

I really understand what you're going through, as I was in the same position a few years ago! There really was no getting out of it.. What I did was just focus on myself and be as selfish as I possibly could. (Pretty sure I failed miserably at it, I'm just not xD) Since you're not responsible for what he does, you should try your best to prioritize yourself and be confident ^^ I'm so sorry to hear about the break up and I hope you will be alright

Note: You're all fantastic and let's hope lots of jobs become available for you guys! 

Thank you Rob. You are both correct I guess x_x there's only one option and that is to keep moving forward, no matter what happens. I'm an atheist but: if god shines upon me I'll wake up and be together with him again ! 

Will focus my attention on other things! mhm!

wow, that sounds awesome, what kind of gig did you play? Congrats on blowing them all away

 

Finally, I had an idea today about the possibility of making a sister-thread to this one, called "the joyful thread" or something, where we can count our blessings so to speak. Not in any way to discredit the validity of this thread, but as a reminder that there is also an abundance of good in the world. I know one thing I would post would be that I made someone laugh today- not sure whether he was laughing at me or with me, but laughter none the less Or things like, I saw something and it just made me smile, stuff like that.

 

Would anyone be interested in this?

 

Anway, sorry for the long rant.

 

Ps. Sincerely hope it wasn't out of line to say any of that. If so, please tell me and I'll apologize and be sure to take it down.

I would DOMINATE that thread.

Apologies for double-posting! x.x

I just wanted to unload without creating a new topic:

 

I've been studying compEng for just under 3 years now, and I was doing well up until this semester. I just feel so mediocre now. When all my classmates seem like they're succeeding, I'm not getting near the class average on tests, my grades are slipping, everyone else has secured a job for the work term in the spring and I've had only one job interview so far. There's so many interests that I'd like to pursue in my free time but I have no free time. I feel so useless. I've come so far, I feel like I identify myself as a compEng student after three years and my family and friends are so proud and they think I'm so smart and I just feel so stupid and like I'm letting them down and living a lie. I don't want to quit, I really do enjoy the majority of my classes (with the exception of circuits) but some small part of me wants to fail my exams in April so I can take the rest of the year off and focus on my other interests and growing as a person. I went straight from high school to university and I'm so tired of studying. I feel like even if I just took the rest of the year off I'd be refreshed to try again in January when the courses become available again. I won't intentionally fail but I'm starting to think I won't be devastated if I don't end up passing.

Aww... Y'know uni is tough girl! Don't try to be so hard on yourself It is your life and you're the one who is going to live the rest of your life with you degree  

So what do you mean by living a lie? I thought you said you were happy with compEng?

There's never more than three people on at any time. We're like a  carnival ride.

For curiosity purposes, do explain xD

Only a certain number of people can ride something like a rollercoaster at one time, the rest must wait in line. This is like Nerdforum, a few people come in and post then go about their lives. Short burst of enjoyment, then you wait for someone to come in and reply.

So... that was slightly contradictary (that's not a word is it??) still, I see what you mean xD

I actually have to say YES to chatbox, but that's just cause I'm lonely and very chatty these days xD

Oh god... my lovely priest is calling me name from the grave ! HELP ME!

Y'all making me want to go back.. I feel the demons calling me <3

But.. I think since Archage is almost upon us.. I shall wait for that :x Don't judge me! 

"We want healers to care about who they're targeting and which heals they're using..." 

Retuning Healing Spells
One of our goals for healing is to tone down the raw throughput of healers relative to the size of player health pools. Currently, as healers and their allies acquire better and better gear, the percentage of a player’s health that any given heal restores increases significantly. As a result, healers are able to refill health bars so fast that we have to make damage more and more “bursty” in order to challenge them. Ideally, we want players to spend some time below full health without having healers feel like their groupmates are in danger of dying at any moment.

Yeh! Finally  

I haven't looked at this thread yet! THE CUTENESS IS OVERWHELMING

^Kawaiii

I NEVER UNDERSTOOD THE MEANING OF THIS THREAD. 

I'm the opposite of a scientist. I just avoid what I don't understand. xD

WHY DID I NOT KNOW THIS SOONER T___T 

*super sad panda* Hug me Sympa!

Too much!?

Maybe ease up on the murdering hugs thing.

HULK^

^ All my worries are swept away for as long as I look at that

Nawwwwwwww~