Goddess Dominant Diva

Hi. I'm Hope. I am working on my event planning degree. My needs are complex. I'm looking for a loving, devoted nerd who is dedicated to improving his or her or their life professionally and personally. I look for complete honesty, complete openness and complete trust in a relationship. I also look for mutual respect (unless he or she or they  tell me in advance that they don't want to be respectful in the bedroom and the level of disrespect they want to treat me with in the bedroom to see where my boundaries are). I also seek someone or a few someones who is/are sexually adventurous. I want to find my romantic soulmate(s) and marry him/her/them and have a total power exchange relationship with him/her/them. I'm bisexual with a female preference. I may not have sex outside of marriage with men because too many take advantage if I do. I'm a dark person to the point of being into dark wicca, vampyrism(although I mostly practice yoga, mudras, prayers and meditations from Hinduism now) and bdsm but not a dark enough person to lose my sense of compassion and empathy (most of the time.) I'm mostly dominant but sometimes submit. However, I could be in a total power exchange relationship that involves me mostly submitting and rarely dominating too. My immediate goal professionally is to have a day job that I'm passionate about that pays the bills, enables me to graduate college and leaves me with enough time and money to pursue one performing arts endeaver a year and nurture my relationships over the next six years. My intermediate goal is to be an event planner and take myself and lover(s) on vacations and retreats and workshops. My long term goal is to run my own business as a madam and courtesan (as courtesans were in sixteenth century Bombay India). I'm female. twenty six years old. Have a vampire pale complexion. Have dirty blonde hair and green eyes and have an overweight body type (no not fat or obese but overweight). I mostly wear dresses, skirts, high heels and make-up in Public. I lost my virginity completely for the first time just six months ago with a very special man but he never wanted the same level of commitment that I did and still doesn't. (Yes, I did everything else except vaginal intercourse with guys up until that point) Given Everything I told you about myself, my goals and my needs, how can I find what I want romantically from a nerd? Both online and In real life? I play furcadia under my username and my email address is hope3rose@yahoo.com if you can give me any ideas on how to find people like you on that game and irl and get what it is that I'm truely looking for. Thank you in advance for your time and consideration.