If everything is pointless, why even bother saying it? What's the point?
You make your own future. You're going to be a worthless, weak piece of trash as long as you keep the thought process you currently have. Find something to love and grab onto it, otherwise your future will stay bleak, and you'll wind up a bitter husk full of nothing but jealousy and hatred for the people strong enough to ignore their feelings of helplessness and hopelessness.
The world was fated to die from the moment it popped into existence. Similarly, you started to die the second you were born. Curling up into a ball because you can't handle that fact won't help you, it'll come regardless. Pointless or not, it'll come. You don't want to live, you don't want to die. Well guess what? You have to pick one.
The world sucks. It's a dark, scary place full of bad things and horrible people. But it's not something you can just sit on the sidelines for. If you don't try with all your might to make something of your life, your place in this world, then it isn't the world that is pointless.
It's you.
You...Feel very strongly about these types of things, don't you?
I probably won't keep this thought process forever, these little spouts just kinda come and go when I get upset. And I do have things I love and I do hold on to them, it's just kinda hard to ignore the feelings of helplessness and hopelessness when they linger in my mind for a while.
And, question I've had since I met you and I figure I should ask now: You don't have anything against me, do you?