jmrobbinswrites

Thank you all for your comments. I was trying to reintroduce myself I suppose, but a lot of emotions got in the way due to recent events. Jumbling a whole bunch of unrelated stuff together is my unintentional specialty.

Without testing the limits of the people around you there is no way to truly know what those limits are.

By playing it safe and never touching their boundaries we never really touch who they truly are as individuals.

When I brush against a person's very outer limits of comfort I get a much more personal connection to them through understanding and in the end that makes them feel closer, easier to get along with in the future.

I see your point, and that's interesting that you feel that brushing up against a person's out limits of comfort gives you a personal connection in the end. I think that connection can be had by asking them without reaching the point of discomfort. You can fully get to know and understand a person without touching their boundaries. Most of the time when I touch a person's outer limits, I lose that person. They stop being my friend. It happened 2 years ago. It happened a week ago. I just lose people through lack of communication and understanding. We don't always know what questions to ask to reveal what these outer limits are, but there isn't always a return from the damage caused by causing that discomfort.

I've been called "selfish" for years. I'm not. At all. Even about a month ago, I started planning a web show called "Jason's Selfish Show" because that's how I'm always labeled. High functioning autism is such a curse to those around me. Many people end up thinking I'm a horrible person because I can't communicate effectively. As a writer, that has been terribly difficult. Though it's why I write. I want to be understood. So badly. That's my dream. To be understood and appreciated.
I'm ranting again. That's a thing I do.

This is the last post I'm going to make on here for quite some time, as I need to take a leave due to personal reasons.
Thank you again for understanding. My e-mail is still on my profile page and if I need to be contacted, that's the way to do it.

Have a good night, everyone. Or day where applicable.

Samantha,

I really do understand how you feel. I get the whole thing where in real life, the relationships with the people in our everyday lives is lacking the encouragement and personal attention that nurture happiness and self-worth. In fact, feeling like that usually causes me to run away from social media/forums/visiting with real people/etc. I'm having difficulty expressing the proper words here, and even though it can be overwhelming to take in all the side comments/conversations that happen on EVERY thread, you'll find those people that you can really connect with and be there for you when you do get these spurts of loneliness and depression.

I've been listening to a lot of Brentalfloss lately. He makes songs about gaming, but usually adds lyrics to game music.

Here are a couple I've been listening to a lot lately.

Crazy Duck in Space

Ballad of the Mages

I think everyone should. Of course, it all has to do with comfort, and most likely Affray or someone will notice you look like some type of celebrity. I mean, that's what I keep seeing anyway. But it's nice to put a name and face together. We are many different looking kinds of people here, and yes, I said that awkwardly on purpose. Anyway... DO IT!!!!

Pokemon is great fun. It wasn't the first TCG Iearned how to play (that would be Magic) but it's still awesome. For some reason I always love using grass. That's my favorite type, even in the video game, but I commend you for being able to play competitively! I play for fun because there's no way I'd be able to put together appropriate decks. Especially because I'm poor.
 

I have gotten real good at picking out fake cards though. So that's a good thing. My cousin brought over tons of her cards one time, and I had found that most of them she bought from a flea market turned out to be fakes, which was a shame.

As far as the new Fairy and Dragon types added in, (my family shares cards, so I say "we" meaning my family) we only have 1 fairy type, 1 dragon type, but only 1 fairy energy.
Anyway. I'm kind of just rambling and jumping around on this topic. I'm sure I'll have more focus in a future post. I get excited to talk about something and just start going all over the place with it.