Akiyo

Guess I'm double posting..

I'd like to celebrate my 100th post with a saddening reality.. Love is just a term for heaven and hell altogether.

Kinda living in the devastating aftermath of those three words I uttered to my boyfriend about a month ago. "We are over".

How quickly everything can just go to shit. Or maybe it started months ago, I just didn't want to face it. I sought out this forum as a distraction and a desperate means of communicating with the "outside world", and I would really like to thank all of you sillys for being so wonderfully weird (is half of that a friends: phoebe's wedding quote?).

Now you're thinking that I don't actually see him anymore.. well.. first off we work together... second we tried to make it work the week after I kicked him out.. and goodness save me, but I just love him to death T_T 

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I just wanted to unload without creating a new topic:

 

I've been studying compEng for just under 3 years now, and I was doing well up until this semester. I just feel so mediocre now. When all my classmates seem like they're succeeding, I'm not getting near the class average on tests, my grades are slipping, everyone else has secured a job for the work term in the spring and I've had only one job interview so far. There's so many interests that I'd like to pursue in my free time but I have no free time. I feel so useless. I've come so far, I feel like I identify myself as a compEng student after three years and my family and friends are so proud and they think I'm so smart and I just feel so stupid and like I'm letting them down and living a lie. I don't want to quit, I really do enjoy the majority of my classes (with the exception of circuits) but some small part of me wants to fail my exams in April so I can take the rest of the year off and focus on my other interests and growing as a person. I went straight from high school to university and I'm so tired of studying. I feel like even if I just took the rest of the year off I'd be refreshed to try again in January when the courses become available again. I won't intentionally fail but I'm starting to think I won't be devastated if I don't end up passing.

Aww... Y'know uni is tough girl! Don't try to be so hard on yourself It is your life and you're the one who is going to live the rest of your life with you degree  

So what do you mean by living a lie? I thought you said you were happy with compEng?

Shiiz that reminds me Robstar! 

Oh, I don't mean to be disrespectful.. BUT THEIR NAME IS RIDICULUS!

http://m.imgur.com/a/D0aPx

Some are pretty neat.

Thank you! I found this cool one with earth lookin all badass and shiz! *save new background*

Look what you did Robstar

I dunno how to insert the video link like you guys do T_T

NVM I DID IT xD

I'm adorable. I'm the perfect front. For like, anything.

Yes, you are! xD Hey, don't feel blank or sad for doing what you feel is right for you! No one should tell you otherwise!

I'd loan you money, but I'm on the other side of the world

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I noticed deep purple and other old school rock bands that you seemed to like, so what about one of the most famous of all; Whitesnake. Possibly not a match if you lean more on the punk rock side though

Hello there Norway.

 

I have friends who stay in Bergen and one in Oslo. 

 

I like looking at their photos of frozen lakes and snow covered plains.

 

I plan to visit your country one day

 

Welcome nonetheless

Norway shall greet you warmly as well! 

I have visited Bergen and it is a rainy, but beautiful city, sir!

I should upload an image of my snowy hometown then!

Hi! I'm very new, but I would just like to say that reading your "thing" was amazing. You seem attentive to detail and I agree that such an epic battle scene in the beginning of it deserves a moments pause, or self reflection. 

I also see it has been a while since this was posted so I am sure you sorted it out and I hope you are still writing!

I will eventually post pieces of my story too