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[Wolf]

How much I miss drinking.

It's a shame I can't drink on my meds

its the only time I feel at peace...

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

Awww.

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That's not good.

[Wolf]

Well, usually I just stay pretty high

but we've had a drought recently, and I have had a monetary drought

I couldnt hold out any longer, I hit the bottles

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

Aww Jaz..

Drinking and smoking should be for fun, not for an escape. :\

[Wolf]

What I tell everyone who confronts me on my escapism:

"One day, I'll sit down, and tell you the story of my life

and YOU'LL want me to be an escapist."

The one time I've actually followed through, was my super catholic-raised gma from cali

I hit a few key points in my life, and left her speechless, she actually started to cry a little

All she said was "I don't think any child should have to go through that"

she doesnt ask me how I'm doing anymore, I don't even hear from her directly, just through my mom

She sends me nice christmas gifts tho

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

Jaz, I'm not going to let you feel sorrie for yourself.

I'm not.

I'm too big of a cunt to.

You shape up.

You have more going for you than you think.
And you're not an asshole, and that's awesome.

No more pity parties.
You're just going to bum yourself out more.

[Wolf]

I wish I were less drunk, so I could give you an answer I wont find fault in later

I try to cheer myself up, day after day, you know I do, you help me do it

but the next day, I wake up, and things are the same or worse. Fatigue sets in, soon the very things I tell myself to cheer myself up fall victim to jamais vu, the words lose their meaning. They are just another repetitious phrase.

I try not to turn the forum into my own personal pity party, though, its not fair to do that to spleen.

I won't post drunk anymore

*back to lurking*

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

No, no..

That's not what I meant.

You know we love you, we've always encouraged you to post what was on your mind on his forums.

I just don't want you to make yourself feel worse is all.

I wish I could help with the shit you're going through.

I really really do.
I'm in absolutely no position to help someone tho.
I'm so sorrie for that.

But don't stop posting, you should always have a place to go to.
<3

[Wolf]

Like I said, I won't post drunk anymore

When I'm alone and drunk, I usually end up here. [Metaphorically, and physically]

It'll be more incentive not to drink, I guess

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

My advice tonight is turrible. >.O

I didn't mean to make you feel bad Jaz, I was trying to give tough lurve.

Drinking less would be good tho.

But refraining from posting when you need someone will make things worse I think.

[Wolf]

No, I'm being horrible tonight

You're trying to help, and I'm doing my kneejerk distancing

I'm sorry

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

Don't apologize for anything Jaz, you're not doing anything wrong.

You know I just really worrie about you and Jeremy.

I'm not able to keep in tough with either of you like I can Danny, and you guys are just as important to me as he is.

And you guys aren't assholes, so I actually want to help you.

[Wolf]

I know

but I am head clothing that belongs on the posterior when I am drunk

[an asshat]

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

BUT YOU'RE OUR ASSHAT!

OMG JAZ!!!

I forgot to tell you!!!!

I got a letter back from Jeremy!!

He's ok! ^___________________^

He just doesn't have teh intrawebs.

He told me to tell you he misses you.

I'm so sorrie I forgots.
I got the letter Tuesday I thinks.

[Wolf]

Im so glad to hear that

I really am

oh, thats such a relief

I had a feeling it was his fams being cheap

I'm just shocked we havent seen him on the news yet, in an Ed Gein type homicide scene

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

Me too!

I cried the entire time I was reading it, I was so happy.

I called up Danny at work and I was trying to speed talk so I wouldn't bother him.. but I was crying too and it was just a lot of sob muttering and he couldn't understand me..

I had to calm down before I could explain what it was. >.>

I can't help it.
Danny feels like home and when I'm upset I want him to comfort me.

He has giant monkey arms. @_@



He would too.

Jeremy loves heem. <.<

Danny is going to try to get him intrawebs soon.

I wrote him and asked him what kind he gets there.

[Wolf]

Me too!

I cried the entire time I was reading it, I was so happy.

I called up Danny at work and I was trying to speed talk so I wouldn't bother him.. but I was crying too and it was just a lot of sob muttering and he couldn't understand me..

I had to calm down before I could explain what it was. >.>

I can't help it.
Danny feels like home and when I'm upset I want him to comfort me.

He has giant monkey arms. @_@



He would too.

Jeremy loves heem. <.<

Danny is going to try to get him intrawebs soon.

I wrote him and asked him what kind he gets there.

xD

run to the embrace of Danny's monkey arms >.>

and good, the sooner the better

[(V) (`m`) (V) ︵ ┻━┻]

Mhmm.

I can't wait. ^__^

I'm going to watch a movie with my sister.

Cause I lurffs her. XD

If anything comes up and you need me, pm me.

I'll hear the boop.

<3 ily

YOU'RE MY LITTLE FUZZY WUZZY

*scratches your belleh*

[Wolf]

Theres a boop? O.o

I am not online nearly enough >.>;;

I'll be ok, have a good time with your sis

I lurf you ^,..^ *tail wags*

[evilevilmonkey]

Oh dear god... don't be upset. I can't stand people being upset. It freaks me out. I hate that they're upset but I can't do anything to help because I don't understand what to do when someone is upset & then I usually make it worse. Umm... cheering up... you mentioned you try & cheer you're self up. What can we do to help cheer you up? Would you like a puppy? Everybody like puppies. Then the puppy could always cheer you up.