So a few minutes ago whilst responding to Sympa's status thing my hand got an itch right in the center of my palm and I absent mindedly scratched it. Which tickled and I smirked. Then a scary thought dawned on me and I tried tickling myself in some other normal places like armpits, sides, back of the knees. Turns out I can tickle myself, and as some of you probably know that is a potential symptom of schizophrenia. I already have a few other symptom type things that line up with schizophrenia and this is kind of fucking me up. None of the symptoms have ever affected my life in a negative way and I have never felt out of control of myself, but it's a bit of a mind fuck to have a handful of little things add up to even being suspicious of schizophrenia.
I'm not losing my shit or anything, it's just a bit of a haymaker out of nowhere in the middle of my work day.
I tend not to leap at any self diagnosis with certainty, but enough things have added up to put me off balance.