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#1541 Bestmand902

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Posted 16 March 2017 - 08:29 PM

I can't remember if I've said this before, but, sometimes, I have this dread that, should I gain fame or notoriety, people will judge me on how I used to act (Which I regret) instead of how I am now.


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Posted 22 March 2017 - 01:23 AM

Ok I feel that I'm a bit of a grumpy prude on this one but here goes....

 

I work alongside this new chick, let's call her RAMONA. She's studying at the local TECH training to become a teacher and does practicum with us.

 

19 - 20 years of age. She's a groovy chick to talk to about video games. But jesus christ...... She won't shut the fuck up about her BF EVERYTIME!!!.

 

I've never indicated any romantic gestures nor flirted with her, but FFS she mentions him every single time we talk.

 

"Haha that kid is pretty funny, kinda reminds me of my BF........" and "oh I was watching Iron Fist, my BF, he's a bit of a martial artist...." 

 

Maybe I'm being a hater because she's happy LOL, I normally just zone out and pretend that I have to tend to a kid or something. lol

 

What do you guys think? Am I just being a dick or wha????

 

When I have GF's I barely ever mention them unless someone asks if I have a partner and/or married.

 

I generally really hate talking about people that I've never met. Like a friend of a friend or something. 


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Posted 22 March 2017 - 06:51 AM

I almost want to say she has a crush on you and she keeps bringing him up more as a reminder to herself more than as a point to drive you off. Seems particularly likely since you say you haven't been flirty at all.

 

Or she just really really likes him. Or he doesn't exist and she's just talking about having a boyfriend so nobody at work will hit on her. It's hard to say without actually knowing her.


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#1544 Mister Sympa

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Posted 22 March 2017 - 07:04 AM

Rob-

She's at that age and stage of her relationship. I know it's obnoxious, but I'm 99% certain that I was the same way at that point. Ya grow out of it.


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#1545 Capsicum Annuum

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Posted 22 March 2017 - 07:42 PM

    This lack of energy is making me feel tired and worthless all the time.
I don't know why everyone else wants to live their life because I certainly don't want to live mine anymore. Sometimes I feel like everyone who actually cares about me just pretends to and that everyone actually wishes I were dead. Especially the women I talk to. All of my so-called friends on Facebook are married with kids or in a successful relationship and I haven't ever had a serious girlfriend.

Everything bad that people have said about me is true. I also feel like I have never done anything productive in my entire life.
Why do I even have a life?
What's the point?

I think I'll just end it once and for all sometime in the next week. Don't expect to see me here anymore. I won't even exist anymore. Literally.

Sorry for interrupting, Rob.



#1546 Mister Sympa

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Posted 23 March 2017 - 10:19 AM

Watch Lazy Town.

 

You cannot be depressed and watch that show.


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Posted 23 March 2017 - 01:34 PM

Here is some honest depression advice:

Go buy yourself some nice hand soap. Seriously. Soap that smells REALLY good to you.

When you're feeling low, go wash your hands slowly. Really take your time. Play with the water.

 

I promise it'll help.


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#1548 Affray

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Posted 23 March 2017 - 02:08 PM

    This lack of energy is making me feel tired and worthless all the time.
I don't know why everyone else wants to live their life because I certainly don't want to live mine anymore. Sometimes I feel like everyone who actually cares about me just pretends to and that everyone actually wishes I were dead. Especially the women I talk to. All of my so-called friends on Facebook are married with kids or in a successful relationship and I haven't ever had a serious girlfriend.

Everything bad that people have said about me is true. I also feel like I have never done anything productive in my entire life.
Why do I even have a life?
What's the point?

I think I'll just end it once and for all sometime in the next week. Don't expect to see me here anymore. I won't even exist anymore. Literally.

Sorry for interrupting, Rob.

At some point nearly everyone goes through a line of thinking like this.

It is very important for you to understand that a vast majority of the things about yourself that you judge negatively barely cross the minds of most other people.

They have their own shit to worry about and are definitely not critiquing your every move like you think they are.

You just do you and everyone else can either accept that or fuck off, their opinions shouldn't be what's important in your life.

 

I consider myself a pretty happy guy and even I've seriously wondered what the point of anything I do is.

Existential crises are sort of a staple of being human dude, we all have our moments of self doubt and inner reflection.

You just can't let the sad guy take the reins when it comes to figuring out your life.

If you are truly at the point where you don't see a point in continuing then there is a good chance that you are at a turning point.

If everything is a wash and you aren't happy with your life then you have nothing to lose by drastically changing it in to what you want it to be.

Figure out what you really, really want to do and put the steps in motion to make it happen.

Move to another country if the one you're in isn't doing anything for you, maybe you will find people who you click with and suddenly the world seems less shitty.

There are just so many things that you can do to offset the very large weight of the world and all you have to do is say fuck it and get your ass out there making it happen. What could you possibly have to lose?


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Posted 24 March 2017 - 01:07 AM

I almost want to say she has a crush on you and she keeps bringing him up more as a reminder to herself more than as a point to drive you off. Seems particularly likely since you say you haven't been flirty at all.

 

Or she just really really likes him. Or he doesn't exist and she's just talking about having a boyfriend so nobody at work will hit on her. It's hard to say without actually knowing her.

Maybe. I'm not quite sure. I don't really understand the early 20'uns nowadays. I think she's actually trying really hard to engage in conversation with me so that she's not a loner, see I'm very charismatic at school, I guess she's drawn to that, maybe not sexual attraction, perhaps work colleague admiration?  

Rob-

She's at that age and stage of her relationship. I know it's obnoxious, but I'm 99% certain that I was the same way at that point. Ya grow out of it.

I thought that too. First real relationship she's had. 1st time she gets to ride the "D" anytime she pleases. She's in true bliss...... up until someone breaks her heart for the 1st time. THEN she will join the rest of us in the bitter/loathing corner. LOLOL


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Posted 24 March 2017 - 01:08 AM


Sorry for interrupting, Rob.

YOU WILL PAY FOR YOUR SINS WITH YOUR LIFE HEATHEN!!!!!!!

 

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Posted 24 March 2017 - 02:34 AM

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Posted 24 March 2017 - 02:51 AM

Infatuation

Ew yucky :P


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#1553 Mister Sympa

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Posted 24 March 2017 - 07:31 AM

YOU WILL PAY FOR YOUR SINS WITH YOUR LIFE HEATHEN!!!!!!!

 

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I miss you, Rob.


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#1554 SirenCalls4U

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Posted 24 March 2017 - 01:26 PM

I miss you, Rob.


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Posted 28 March 2017 - 05:23 AM

Okay, just need to get something off my chest.

 

My STUPID misophonia needs to take a freaking chill pill. Like, one day where I don't have to constantly wear noise cancelling headphones while blasting music just avoid small noises would be such a freaking relief. All day every day I need to blast my ears full of music so I can just go on about my day without a total mental breakdown. Once in a while I might forget to play music or wear headphones and then BAM I'm hearing noises that make me want to smack my head, scream and cry (and sometimes I do end up actually hitting my head out of an automatic reflex - along cracking my neck, twitching and a variety of other things), and so I have to run to my headphones and ipod (which is pretty much a necessity to keep charged at all times) and once again blast music so I can't hear anything. I'm so sick of never being able to have silence or just be able to do normal things like go to a restaurant or have a meal with someone else. Snacks are even a no go (a definite no go actually), so that takes out the cinema - and that sucks because I always loved going to the movies when I was little!

 

Not only that, but the place I live in is right next to a street where trucks unload deliveries at times around 3:00am, and they are never quiet. It's been more than a few times that I've woken up at 3am to loud beeping, metal clanging, and flashing lights through my bedroom window.

 

And then we have the anxiety rearing its ugly head so I can have horrible panic attacks if I don't have enough sleep or I just feel overwhelmed by something. I literally have to be careful of my caffeine and alcohol intake because of this. The other week I spent a whole day in shock because of a particularly bad panic attack. I mean, I can't even stand going into a supermarket without coming out feeling flustered and a little panicked. It gets very tiring feeling so tense all the time.

 

The thing is, I'm dealing with it. It just makes me depressed that I've become so restricted in what I can and can't do, and I'm so sick of wearing these headphones. I just want to relax, but I can't. I don't think I've properly mentally relaxed in at least seven years.

 

Ah sorry! I just needed to get that out of my system. Everyone has their problems that they have to deal with, and those are mine. I've just got to look at the positives in life. I need to focus on writing my book.  :) 

 

P.S. A black thing (don't know if it was an insect or spider) was on my arm as I was writing this and it scared the crap out of me. That was definitely not a positive thing to focus on.  :( 


I hope you're having a nice day. :)


#1556 Affray

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Posted 28 March 2017 - 08:47 AM

That sucks dude.

 

I happened upon this when I Googled misophonia to see exactly what it was all about.

 

https://megpoulinind...ith-misophonia/

 

There doesn't seem to be a whole hell of a lot of actual factual medical sources for your problem, but that page seems to have a few decent ideas that you could try out.

Worth a shot anyway.


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Posted 28 March 2017 - 09:04 AM

The world needs a fucking mute button.


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Posted 28 March 2017 - 09:40 AM

That sucks dude.

 

I happened upon this when I Googled misophonia to see exactly what it was all about.

 

https://megpoulinind...ith-misophonia/

 

There doesn't seem to be a whole hell of a lot of actual factual medical sources for your problem, but that page seems to have a few decent ideas that you could try out.

Worth a shot anyway.

 

You're a saint for looking it up. Thank you for the information. :)

 

The world needs a fucking mute button.

 

%10000000000 agree


I hope you're having a nice day. :)


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Posted 03 April 2017 - 08:35 AM

I'm reeeeealy hoping Jalepeno Business didn't go ahead and do something stupid.

He hasn't been online since he posted about killing himself.

 

Please be a grab for attention dude.


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#1560 Mister Sympa

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Posted 03 April 2017 - 09:16 AM

Has anyone messaged him? If not, I totally will.


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