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#621 Affray

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Posted 09 March 2015 - 06:07 PM

Must be.

I wish I heard it more often.

 

People look at me weird when I say fortnight, or thrice.


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Posted 09 March 2015 - 06:18 PM

We often use it in the context of, 

 

'Yo! Do you get paid this week?"

 

"nah bro, I get paid fortnightly coz my boss is being a stingy c*nt"

 

I guess that's why foreigners to our countries think that we sound majestic and regal. :)

 

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Posted 09 March 2015 - 06:21 PM

Must be.

I wish I heard it more often.

 

People look at me weird when I say fortnight, or thrice.

I get weird looks whenever I say 'twixt'


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Posted 10 March 2015 - 01:00 AM

Because you're not Shakespeare and when the rest of the west country speaks in guttural grunts it's probably even more weird. ;)

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Posted 10 March 2015 - 08:50 PM

I am so unhappy, it's hard to breath


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Posted 10 March 2015 - 09:06 PM

I am so unhappy, it's hard to breath

 

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Posted 10 March 2015 - 09:15 PM

Anything new Elf, or is the same same problems as before?


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Posted 10 March 2015 - 09:26 PM

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Posted 10 March 2015 - 09:59 PM

Feel ya Elf. I'm doing my best to crawl out of the worst depression I've ever had. While I was gone I made the mistake of agreeing to try the therapy my mom suggested. Damn, I don't know what that guy did to me but I've always been able to keep cheerful/neutral despite everything yet here I am near tears every day over every tiny thing. After just two sessions. Thankfully the rest have been cancelled and my family is trying to drag me out of my misery, but it's hard. While I was down I crashed things so badly that it's difficult to pick up where I left off. I've failed the first semester of a college course I chose incorrectly, I'm no good at anything useful to human survival, and now I'm also struggling with trying to rip myself away from self harm. It sucks.
Still, I'm working at it. Maybe just maybe I'll manage to do half decently in the coming years even if I know this train wreck will never be a proper human. Today I'm feeling just a tad more optimistic than I've been in a while.
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Posted 11 March 2015 - 01:14 AM

I got into a physical fight with my brother today.

He has been so horrible and long story short, he made the kitchen a mess and ate my food, so I started to clean up. I noticed he had a Berocca canister on the bench (he's collecting them) and I threw it at him because I am so tired of him leaving his crap in the general areas of the house. He got up and threw it back at me, then he started slapping me, so I retaliated and tried to slap him back and he grabbed my wrist and put me in a hold. I bit him to get him off me, which he did, then he grabbed my throat.

 

It's not the first time he's done something like this and my body hurts after going through that. I can't take him anymore and I hate him, I don't want this monster to be my brother. He isn't a nice person, he preys on people to make them feel insecure or helpless because it gives him power and I don't want to know him anymore.


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Posted 11 March 2015 - 02:19 AM

I got into a physical fight with my brother today.

He has been so horrible and long story short, he made the kitchen a mess and ate my food, so I started to clean up. I noticed he had a Berocca canister on the bench (he's collecting them) and I threw it at him because I am so tired of him leaving his crap in the general areas of the house. He got up and threw it back at me, then he started slapping me, so I retaliated and tried to slap him back and he grabbed my wrist and put me in a hold. I bit him to get him off me, which he did, then he grabbed my throat.

 

It's not the first time he's done something like this and my body hurts after going through that. I can't take him anymore and I hate him, I don't want this monster to be my brother. He isn't a nice person, he preys on people to make them feel insecure or helpless because it gives him power and I don't want to know him anymore.

Trust me sister. Call the po-po whenever shit like that happens. 

 

They don't take too lightly to M.A.F (Male assault female)

 

There's nothing more satisfying then watching someone getting arrested and getting their beans. 

 

Seen many a dicks getting the bash from the feds. (My dad on several occasions lol)


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Posted 11 March 2015 - 11:37 AM

I got into a physical fight with my brother today.

He has been so horrible and long story short, he made the kitchen a mess and ate my food, so I started to clean up. I noticed he had a Berocca canister on the bench (he's collecting them) and I threw it at him because I am so tired of him leaving his crap in the general areas of the house. He got up and threw it back at me, then he started slapping me, so I retaliated and tried to slap him back and he grabbed my wrist and put me in a hold. I bit him to get him off me, which he did, then he grabbed my throat.

 

It's not the first time he's done something like this and my body hurts after going through that. I can't take him anymore and I hate him, I don't want this monster to be my brother. He isn't a nice person, he preys on people to make them feel insecure or helpless because it gives him power and I don't want to know him anymore.

Holy shit Rose, please, for your own safety call the police. I really care about you and I really don't want you to get hurt. Enough is enough.



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Posted 11 March 2015 - 11:45 AM

Agreed. Abuse should never be accepted.
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Posted 11 March 2015 - 01:19 PM

A friend who I asked to come get me out of the house took me down to the nearest cop shop and I had a discussion with a constable about what to do. I can't really claim assault because I threw the first punch so to speak by throwing something at him.

 

Whether or not I get a private domestic dispute claim against him, it's not going to change is attitude toward the house, which is one of my biggest breaking points. Just him sitting there, on his stupid couch doing nothing all day beside sucking down the meals I pay for and I take time out of my day to cook and just leaving his garbage where ever he feels like stresses me to no end and whenever I ask him to get off his arse and do something for the nth time, he calls me a bitch and tells me I need to get off my period when I get mad that he doesn't do anything.

 

Also filing the dispute leaves me in a position where I still have to be around a known aggressor, waiting for another attack before I can do anything about it, he's been abusive all throughout our childhood and it's not just simple hair pulling and arm locks. No he's given me bloody noses, welts, bruises and concussions from beatings, luckily he's never broken anything.

 

There's no other option, for my mental safety, before I kill him or myself, I need to get away from that retched cunt.


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Posted 11 March 2015 - 03:57 PM

i recently broke up with my girlfriend (more like i was dumped then broke up) of two years, and while i know compared to many that is not very long. but we started dating when we were 15 and am now 18, so all of my more adult life (if it could even be seen as adult) was with her. i never really bothered making friends, and when we started dating it caused a fall out between me and my friends. so now i'm single, with no friends and feeling pretty alone. To make things worse two days after we broke up she started seeing another guy, and it's left me feeling useless and insignificant as the two years of my life i put into our relationship got replaced so quickly and easily for her, we also still see each other in collage, and she's fine and happy and moved on, while i'm sitting here half hating and half loving her still. A week after we broke up my cousin died in an accident, which by it's self was horrible to deal with and accept, it gave me a reality check in that i was alone, i was so use to having the emotional support of someone else that when i tried to find comfort there was no one there, girlfriend, friend or family. it left me in a pretty bad place and i've started getting problems similiar to depression. While i know theres no magical remedy to help, i've been trying to talk to people, and make friends to give me things to do. sadly being the nerdy person i am (not normally a bad thing) i cant really manage to at collage, so turned to the internet to find people to talk to, also after seeing this post i really wanted to just vent everything i'm feeling and whats happened, as it's been bottled up



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Posted 11 March 2015 - 04:39 PM

Forums can be a great place to meet people and make friends that's for sure. Honestly though, you can't use this place as an analogue for genuine human contact, at best you can turn to the internet to alleviate your stress and use it as a distraction to shift your focus onto happier things.

 

I'm 19 going on 20 this month so we're of a similar age, I left school not that long ago and remember what it was like. Sixth form was pretty boring and shitty for me and I sort of went through it in a trance, I don't remember being genuinely happy for those two years. I mean sure, I was fine but I wasn't like I am now. All I can say to you is that from anecdotal experience, and from looking at the way things went for my friends, things will get better.

 

Sure, that's not what you want to hear...you want to be better now and that makes complete sense. Unfortunately you have to really work at it to feel better and the more you put effort into being happy again the quicker your feelings will change. There will be more girls, whether you go to uni or end up going straight into work, women will not cease to exist. :) Eventually when you're ready you will move on, especially when you leave college and the distance put between you will be significant enough that you will be numbed to her existence. You know, we got stuff like Tinder these days so if you want to just hook up or whatever, it's not so hard, I wouldn't worry about that bit.

 

Focus on as much human contact as possible, get out and do things, be active, enjoy the little bits of life that make it worth living. It sounds like really stereotypical dumb shit to say but that's how you move forward, I believe.

 

Also avoid using alcohol or weed or fags as a crutch, trust me. <3


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Posted 11 March 2015 - 07:42 PM

Rose: That is righteously fucked up. As soon as you have anything you can use against him to get him out of the house, especially from a legal standpoint, jump on it. Your brother is definitely not good for your well being, or his own really. Until then you are going to have to be the Hulk, Wonder Woman, and Superwoman all rolled in to one.

 

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And keep your eyes on the mail.


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Posted 11 March 2015 - 07:45 PM

The hulk, but sexy! Becomes stronger with anger! Get 'em girl


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Posted 11 March 2015 - 08:46 PM

i recently broke up with my girlfriend (more like i was dumped then broke up) of two years, and while i know compared to many that is not very long. but we started dating when we were 15 and am now 18, so all of my more adult life (if it could even be seen as adult) was with her. i never really bothered making friends, and when we started dating it caused a fall out between me and my friends. so now i'm single, with no friends and feeling pretty alone. To make things worse two days after we broke up she started seeing another guy, and it's left me feeling useless and insignificant as the two years of my life i put into our relationship got replaced so quickly and easily for her, we also still see each other in collage, and she's fine and happy and moved on, while i'm sitting here half hating and half loving her still. A week after we broke up my cousin died in an accident, which by it's self was horrible to deal with and accept, it gave me a reality check in that i was alone, i was so use to having the emotional support of someone else that when i tried to find comfort there was no one there, girlfriend, friend or family. it left me in a pretty bad place and i've started getting problems similiar to depression. While i know theres no magical remedy to help, i've been trying to talk to people, and make friends to give me things to do. sadly being the nerdy person i am (not normally a bad thing) i cant really manage to at collage, so turned to the internet to find people to talk to, also after seeing this post i really wanted to just vent everything i'm feeling and whats happened, as it's been bottled up

 

 

Sure, that's not what you want to hear...you want to be better now and that makes complete sense. Unfortunately you have to really work at it to feel better and the more you put effort into being happy again the quicker your feelings will change. There will be more girls, whether you go to uni or end up going straight into work, women will not cease to exist. :)

 

Also avoid using alcohol or weed or fags as a crutch, trust me. <3

I couldn't agree more. You need to go out into the world and explore. College was a really great place to meet girls. Not in the sense of "yeah I wana fuck all of these girls" but they we're good in making me comfortable being around the opposite sex. 

 

Work was really where i got to meet and befriend the girls who I would eventually hook up with. You saw them every week, you spoke to them because you knew when their breaks were and invite them out because they had the same shifts as you.

 

Making friends is pretty easy. Just find people with similar interests, video gaming? Sports? drugs? jokes.

 

Take it from me though, self medicating with weed is only a temporary remedy. Lasts about an hour after you sober up you feel 3x as sad. 

 

I found that recording music and swearing into a microphone served as a good stress release. :)


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Posted 12 March 2015 - 12:51 PM

thank you Gol~ and Robstar, i know it's not something that will magicly fix, and for dealing with talking irl to others i've started to make class friends in collage, and going to the local cardstore for gaming to meet people :)

   i mainly posted here just becasue it let me vent everything i was feeling, wasnt trying to replace being social in real life with the internet, as much as i wish that worked haha. it was great to have such a quick responce to what i said though, and it did cheer me up so thanks

 

p.s as for crutches, i play too many card games and warhammer to be able to afford to smoke, take drugs or drink alot of alchole, so i'll be okay ;D







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